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It's so hard,
To open up your heart.
Especially when your emotions are so unstable.
I notice now how much trauma,
From the past,
Comes back to you later in life.
It's so hard for me,
To see couples holding hands.
To see fathers holding their children.
To see mothers being normal and caring.
There have been so many days where I just wanted to cry.
To cry because of all the love that happens around me.
It's funny how I am incapable of getting that.
I live through other people,
To try and understand what real love,
Or the different kinds of love feel like.
It's so embedded in my past,
That I just can't remember.
It's the worst for me,
When people take advantage of me.
They know they can get away with,
Making me feel something for them.
Well I'm done with that.
I've been hurt too many times,
Too often.
And too much right now.
I want nothing to do with love.
Right now love means nothing.
I don't want to care for anyone.
I need to care for myself.
So stop trying to use me.
Stop trying to bullshit me.
I told you I can't handle it,
But you screwed with me anyway.
Have a nice life.
To open up your heart.
Especially when your emotions are so unstable.
I notice now how much trauma,
From the past,
Comes back to you later in life.
It's so hard for me,
To see couples holding hands.
To see fathers holding their children.
To see mothers being normal and caring.
There have been so many days where I just wanted to cry.
To cry because of all the love that happens around me.
It's funny how I am incapable of getting that.
I live through other people,
To try and understand what real love,
Or the different kinds of love feel like.
It's so embedded in my past,
That I just can't remember.
It's the worst for me,
When people take advantage of me.
They know they can get away with,
Making me feel something for them.
Well I'm done with that.
I've been hurt too many times,
Too often.
And too much right now.
I want nothing to do with love.
Right now love means nothing.
I don't want to care for anyone.
I need to care for myself.
So stop trying to use me.
Stop trying to bullshit me.
I told you I can't handle it,
But you screwed with me anyway.
Have a nice life.
Literature
If
And if I could
I would push this needle straight to my skin
Sewing up the edges to keep all the pain in
And if I could
I would tie the fraying seams tight
To give the illusion that everything is alright
And if I could
I would forget you ever existed
Pretend we never happened, so I don't need to fix it
And if I could
I would burn up every memory
But that's impossible, because you are a part of me
And if I could
I would tear the pain straight from my chest
I'd forget about you like I forgot all the rest
And if I could
I would get stitched up and be all better
Perfectly intact, just like all of your letters
And if I could
I w
Literature
Reaching Out.
I'm reaching out with my hands
Expecting you my love to embrace me,
But when I close my hand and see that you
Have not yet grasped on,
It hurts.
With every time I open my hand
To this painful empty feeling,
It tears this hole in my heart open
Letting it fill in with sadness,
And letting it become deeper.
So I let my nails grow out
Not expecting for anyone to latch on,
Continuing to grasp this desolate air
I find my self falling down in despair,
But then I see you reaching out
To grab my lonely hand out from the dark,
But alas I cut you,
I lost the sense of caring,
My nails and my heart,
Have become too sharp for this hand
Literature
I Wonder
Will I ever tell you, I wonder,
How you make me feel?
It's doubtful at best
For I don't even know
Who you are
I may have clues
But do I really want to know?
Yes, of course I do
Just the thought of you
Passing through my mind
Fills my heart with joy
I want to dance with you
Sing with you
Let you in my heart
And hope you want the same
But I'm not sure
If I have the courage
To tell you
Or even figure out who you are
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My life right now. I suppose.
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this sounds just so cruel of those people who do that. using feelings to hurt the worst way. even if they didnt know. but i still like this poem. are you alright?